B&W Challange: A look over your country

(Un regard sur votre pays)



losing sight of the sea

here i am strolling back to reality
back to where lost weeks have been
lost in the grasp of a continuality
holding on to my being

i should sleep to be able to wake up
to hear the thunders to my skin
whistling the echo
of a fast-paced dream

a film circling in my mind
flicks of memory glances of him
i feel the numbness of the air
as i swallow in deeply
tightening the grip
weakening my stand

i could almost touch
i could almost feel
i could almost taste
the bitter-sweet nuisance of the sea

drifting me afloat...

and until now
yes, until now,
letting me be.


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note: Photo taken last August 20th at Subic Bay's Ocean Adventure Park, dubbed as "the first and only open water marine park in Southeast Asia".
This should have been for last week's topic: The Sea (la mer), but yeah, it still applies for this week's theme.

Illo Friday: Change

... from MS Paint to Camera Paint



A face among the crowd
like a passing storm
  her rain passed thru
she once knew the incomprehensible view
cast the twilight into the ravine
craving the desire of falling in

she must confront the inanity
  of the monsoon
as she sprinkled the stardust
to her eyes too soon

she could have carried her shadow
as she listened to the silence of the night
sweeping the echoes
making her senses fade

the guerdon of what she knew
is not the virtue of what she owe
she shouted to the oceans to halt
as she felt her feet slide
carrying her consciousness aside.

she woke up and saw
  that she was alone again
in the vast emptiness of her yearnings,
as all surroundings, time, and landscapes
were blanched, robbed of color and relief

an impassioned poet in a void
occupied by an empty rhythm and beat
all around her was an endless ocean
a great soundless hole swallowing her.

hearing whispers of undecipherable words
teaching herself not to cry
to make that big leap, that big change
as she let time consume her
and let her dreams pass by

but in the end of it all
  she remained knowing
she's not another face alone in the crowd
as she hang on to that amber july.


TO

note: finally updated. light painting made July14th..

B&W Challenge: Picture of Holidays (Photo de Vacances)

Yeah, i know holidays are suppose to be cheery...

September marks the first month of the Christmas Holiday here in the Philippines. Because it’s the beginning of the "ber" months.. Oh well, but for me, it's around this time of the year that a certain fear creeps back to my being. My old readers would know why, it’s because I have this fear of December. The reason? There is always, always, either tragic happening on this fateful month, or something so significant that it changes my life from then on. If you care to find out what, the archives on the sidebar remains there for a reason.. But I hope this year would be different. As a close relative will have their wedding on this month. Sincerely wish them all the happiness. I hope they wont end up as most abrupt marriages do.

Sorry, but if this December would not be tragic, then that would make me feel at ease. This photo was taken on Christmas 2004. Year after my mom passed, the year i got my surgery, and year before somebody i love got very ill. And a couple of more deaths on different years preceding this. Maybe this photo is so meaningful it brings back joy and sorrow all at the same time.

Oh my, i think my insomnia is getting into me. Four more hours before my night job starts and i still havent had a decent sleep. And reading my archives and looking at old photos adds more tension. There are just some feelings that can't disappear, they just get buried. Some may almost disintegrate, some still get unearthed.

Illo Friday: Safe

for this Moogie Day...



maybe it's SAFE to say
(even if it's late)
that this is my contribution
for Illo Friday..



and just like IF:Run
protests are still welcome
at comments section }:-p

Photo Friday: Silver

silver sea
let your slow ripples envelope me
as the breeze catch my plea

slow tides
succumb me to your endless embrace
let me drown with your illuminating daze

setting sun
melt away the pain and numbness
let me shrivel and sink to your caress

untarnished sand
cover me with your immaculate white
into the safe haven of the endless night

long journey
floating across the waves the silence runs
washed away, you left my sorrows gone.



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note: Photo taken at Snake Island, Palawan, last July.
We were the only tourists left at the island when I took this shot.
And just something to share.. on our way back to Honda Bay, the sun has already set, and as we passed by Bat Island, we saw bats swarming out of the caves to the sky.. the boat guide said it was rare for tourists to chance upon these bats for they always never reach that time on the sea.
My contribution to