torture

and the thunders roll under my feet
the ground jolted as the sky
trembled in deceit

and as lightnings toil the heavens
a hundred years of pent up tears
now drained and washed
  down everything...



the noise bleed into words
and the hungry tongue tortures
the silent scream with prejudice
grumble echoes through the horizon's fleet
disintegrate into warm breeze
a gut-perspiring beat

as the thoughts overlap
with unpatterned rhythm
and mind piercing with each mussing

the thumping of the noise
now continue to sting
and continue to irritate
oh, how much torture can one take?

Illo Friday: Heroes

Heroes and Deities: The Ambiguous Twists

Ares, the god of war. The month of March was named after his Roman name, Mars. Although known to be aggressive and sanguinary, love over-ruled him thru Aphrodite (the goddess of love, beauty and affection, wife of Hephaestus and daughter of Zeus), with whom he had an illicit affair which produced three children: Phobus (phobia), Deimus (fear) and Harmonia (married to Cadmus, who slayed the dragon which was sacred to Ares, but after 8 years of penance, he married Harmonia. And gave her as a wedding gift, a necklace fashioned by Hephaestus, together with a jeweled robe, which had the power of stirring up strife to whoever possessed it. Harmonia and Cadmus were turned into serpents.)

In Later legends, Eros (the god of love) was said to be the son of Aphrodite- by various fathers: Ares, Zeus (god of the sky, the supreme diety) or Hermes (god of luck and weath, sleep and dream, and conductor of the souls of the dead to Hades - god of the underworld, brother of Zeus). Some literature suggest Eros and Aphrodite as lovers. Aphrodite's greatest rival is Persephone (goddess of the dead and ferility of the earth, queen of the underworld, daughter of Zeus nad Demeter, wife of Hades), where being bound to return to Hades, fell inlove with Adonis who was also inlove with Aphrodite.

As the All-Father, the Greeks had to make Zeus polygamous or promiscuous and chose the latter as being less offensive to their mores. By his sister and wife Hera, he sired Hebe, Eileithyia, Hephaestus and Ares.

And like poetry, their stories are open to more than one interpretation.

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note: I wasn't planning of drawing them all, given the limited time and resources, and all the literature i wanted to read, who else would i fancy but Ares, the god of war, the ruler of passion, the avenger, the hero.

*Velvet Venus now surrounds herself with the Green Mist.

coastlines

wading my feet thru water
burried a second in wet land
i looked down and saw -
we are but grains of sand
washed among a desert of waves
the heat burning and melting
each salty vignette.

the monotonous journey
of every new day
ends up in a beauty
cast down the unawake
vessels of the clouds
sail to the northwind's dictate
tossing down shadows
and colors with no name

one day a reflection shimmered
to the corner of my eye
it was you in a disguise
of a fibble light

we swim in a galaxy of endless passersby
and every turn of the wave
you flung closer by
the indulgent sun is out again
revoyaging the plumblessness of the sky

i see you looking up in pain
i see you in the infinte pattern
each star you reflected
each star sweeps thru your breath
and like wind blowing through my face
your shadow kiss my tears away

we are confined to the ideas of mankind
by the border of conventional laws we bind
what is really in me,
what is really in you?
im all here waiting for the waves to continue

before the last wave will fade
before the last turn disintigrate
only two pairs of eyes left hovered
would these pairs find each other?

and i drown myself in wonder
coz we are but a grain of sand
in the coastline of the world.



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note: background music while writing Cranes - "Flute Song"

Illo Friday: Black and White

Confined by Time

and the sight of you split in two
im bound to the limits of my dying due
each second i blend with your shadow
each second i spin with endless tomorrows

gray eyes, watch me
as the rain envelope my anxiety
threads of silver drops embroider the darkness
an hour of lassitude, of mild physical distress.

catch me...
   before its all over
hold me...
   before i quiver
save me...
   before i get lost.

Infected with the Music Plague

Ooh i like this Tag! Ragdoll tagged me and Sam. i know its almost a week ago.. been really busy this past week. Politics here is so bloody! LOL. No, really.. the President's phone is being wire-tapped (whats new?) but i guess having a conversation during elections to the Commission on Elections Chairman is a sin nowadays. There's probably a download link somewhere... hmm... Anyway... here is my list...

- Total volume of music on my computer: 10 GB shared on slsk (soulseek) and still growing! LOL! Plus about 5-8 GB scattered arround multiple folders. (tssk i need to organize my files) and ooh new HD!! i only have 40GB total so im doubting if i install another program like corel draw my pc will crash!

The last CD I bought:

- Actual CD: hmm... can i count the last orig cds i recieved? *giggles... but hmm last one i actually bought was the UK reissue of the 1984 Lotus Eaters' No Sense of Sin 3 years ago.. hmm or was it 5? Too bad the cds i really really like arent available here in this third world country. tssk!

- Digital CD: lol i dont buy. i download! hehe.. latest completion is Avrocar - dont know the album title yet. Currently completing is Spacemen 3 double cd Recurring + rare tracks *.*

- Song playing right now: actually watching a vid of Stereolab - Cybele's Reverie at Later with Jools Holland.

Five songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
this must be more than five. hard to cut them down to this size... but here are my choices anyway (really can't cut them to five. sorry.)
1. Light Song - Cranes
2. Just to See You Smile - (all 4 versions, ha!) Spacemen 3
3. Sometimes - My Bloody Valentine
4. Just Like Honey - Jesus and Mary Chain
5. Pale Blue Eyes - The Velvet Underground
6. Curl - Morella's Forest

     

And very timely, im working on a list and have yet to post my top 50 albums of all time. stay tuned. For now if the music above interests you, visit compilation of cool music links we found at psychocandies Check out the Free Downloads section.

Who to Tag? No need to think further... Of course Ambres! You're "It!" HA! now you're obliged to post! hehehe *winks

Illo Friday: Summer

The Dance of Innocence



The palace of the Sun rose up in columns
As girls of the forest, nymphs dance around in glee
Free as the sun and moon that shine
Ungrasping the agony and hatred of mankind.

Little laughters paint the leaves with due
Their standstill cover the darkness with light.
A new bright morning rising with the beat
Of echos and melodies thru their thumping feet.

Wind blowing through the swift courses of the sky
Make mine your fancy and take this liberty.
Open your thoughts to the change of day
As radiance guide your spirit away.

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notes:
The Story behind the poem: Experiencing now the transition of Summer to the rainy season in this part of the world, i recall how i welcomed the summer of this year which came around last March.

The Story behind the drawing: I decided to participate at Illustration Friday. And their Theme for this week is Summer...

With this, Two things remained in my mind. First the Song "Driving in the Sun" by the Cranes. Second, Ovid's "Phaethon's Ride". I guess, combining them together i came up with my version of part of a Michealangelo painting. And i beg you dear readers not to compare. Now Velvet signs off as i download me the long-awaited program Corel Draw.

And because i dont have any other tool other than MS Paint, i dont even have a scanner, and i just borrow my cousin's digicam once in a blue moon, this is all that i could offer. Click for a Better View

See you next week...

The Slow Mirror

gazing at your shadow
slowly moving
each particle of you show
dancing in the dark
gradually catching the light -
the light wrapping you
sipping outside
sliding away...
your faded guitar
through the spaces behind
blends in the night.

i stare -
at the semblance of you
half dark half blue
as you get blinded by the glare
a spot hang over
between our superficial worlds.

with slow perception
i dive into the distance
and dare to create the voyage of the twilight
and we journey through
endless walks
battled by words and talks
as we roam in the presence of reality
draging the sunset in our pockets.

you cloathe me
with your warm persistence
as my rationality
leave this three dimensional world
and blend in with yours.



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note: nearing the hundreth day of solitude .... mmm

Tranced by the Dark Sound

Some blogging ago, someone posted about the 'soundtrack of his life'... Today I burned a cd with some recently downloaded mp3s which I compiled. It's somehow my "Soundtrack of the moment". Significance? After all that, Last song made me teary-eyed.

1. You, Looking at Me for a Sign - Martyn Bates
2. Her Majesty's Trusted Food - The Tear Garden
3. Asleep - Love Spirals Downwards
4. Our Lips Are Sealed - Avrocar
5. With The Fume of Sighs - Dead Eros
6. In Search of My Rose - The Tear Garden
7. Mercy - I Am X
8. Violaine - Cocteau Twins
9. Monstrous Joy - Eyeless in Gaza
10. Track Three - Cyberia
11. The Shadow Box - Edward Ka-Spel
12. Hold Me - Sleeping Dogs Wake
13. Fond Affections - This Mortal Coil
14. This Will Make You Love Again - I Am X



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note: i miss my guitar... and miss mij lief... if i have to switch the lights off, i wanna switch them off with you..

invisible steps

silence around me
but chaos in my head
my thoughts are running
a hundread miles in a second.

then a crash passed by
growling hissing metal
swishing, flattening the sky
leaving marks of stray bullets behind.

the stillness was broke
a slight spank fom the cold
chime drops tinkering
then back to quiet it seem.

hours gone endless
my mind walked to cairo and back
forcing myself to move
but my being stayed aback.

now the echo from across lands
whispers carried by the wind
above me was scorching
beyond me was heat.

where is my senses taking me?
a flat coast and desert maybe
a million faces leaving
their shadows dissolve to nothing.

the pervading medley of my repose
i relish with anxiety
whats beyond these brick walls
whats beyond these mediocrity

will you take me away
from this toruosity?
my inane impulse -
now numb.
  now slits.
    now rubbles.