the things i miss

"I think we dream so we dont have to be apart so long. If we're in each others deams, we can be together all the time." - PDV



1. wake up, smoke, and miss you
2. shower, smoke, and miss you
3. do some stuff, smoke, and miss you
4. eat brunch, smoke, and miss you
5. shuffle stuff, smoke, and miss you
6. gaze at stars, smoke, and miss you
7. eat dinner, smoke, and miss you
8. watch tv, smoke, and miss you
9. listen to music, smoke, and miss you
10. read and write something, smoke, and miss you
11. go online, download, smoke, and miss you
12. dream of skydiving in paris, smoke, and miss you
13. think of more things, smoke a few more, and miss you
14. go to bed, smoke, and miss you

14 things, divide them in two and half of me is you.. in tribute to my blog turning 3, those are the things that i miss and were once me.. now everything is busy but despite that i still miss you..

will we ever dream of paris again? ca va?


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photo credit: "Paris" by Aerial Photos

photo friday: travel

b.l.a.n.k.

i wake up
darkness around me
five seconds before the alarm rings
i pretend to not hear
but it comes echoing in my head
in the dungeon of my desires
i long to sink beneath the sheets
to melt with the fresh breath of another twilight
that is another day for me
and the other side of the world
but i have no choice
choices are left for the resilient
and i am not as free
and nothing is altered by staying
so the mist lifts me
as i drag my nerves to rake the cold floor
every step further from tranquility
along with my soul that sleeps with the sound
burning the thread of where i travel
as it denies another window to open
so can you -
help me banish the void
that recurs on the sundown
of my shortened years?
no, i know. there’s nothing
that i can even do
but concede on
and embrace it.

at
least
embrace it
with
you.



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photo notes: this post is my entry for this week's PhotoFriday. and since i cant decide on which image to attach the poem i wrote, might as well have them both.

Illo Friday: Scale

i was stunned this morning to find out that there was already 350 entries to this week's illustration friday. and gosh its only monday!! did i went awol that long?! my ttlb rank even fell to a microorganism! waah!

but while all the IF folks posted a fish scale or a weighing scale.. or something out of the ordinary.. a picasso-ish abstract, a playful kinder art, a graffiti, a growing mustache or whatnot, i thought of posting this old illo that is collecting micro dust from my archived files.

yeah it was suppose to be a reciprocal portrait but some people are just too busy (which includes me!)

so here yah go.. hope you can guess who this is before clicking the last image.


















"portrait of a man named ..."
930 x 630 (orig.)
MS Paint

10 things i hate

Deity.. the goddess of beauty and light... tagged everybody who lurks under her radiance.. and since i hardly have time for anything.. why not make this post an escape from all the “chaos” of work. (erm, not your chaos, deity) and as a special additive, why not make this meme a list of 10 things i hate and love and just hate and just love? confused? erm so am i, i think. Coz this was way past due…

Food: love and hate - street food – and I found the perfect blog who posted them all. [sari-sari store] tho i love the salty red egg, after seeing the pics on how it was made, erm.. i sorta changed my mind now. but i still love chicharon, quail eggs, pork isaw, fish/squidballs.. basically all those posted there except for erm.. addidas (chikcen feet), betamax (blood hardened and shaped in rectangular) and one day old chick! for the untrained eyes, those pics may all look gross.. but i love to eat them except the last 3 that i mentioned.

Fruits: only love - actually, contrary to deity, i love star apple. (known as “kaimito” in our native tongue) [wiki-kaimito] i also love mangoes – fresh to dried to green to ripe.. from the smell of the skin down to the last drop of juice from the seed’s edges!

only hate - what else than durian!!! god i hate the smell of this and awk! the taste is more awful than its odor! [durian]

Veggies: love and hate - potatoes.. i love it in any way you cook it. strangely, except for potato salad. i don’t really hate potato salad but i just don’t fancy them. just give me something else.

and what veggies do i only hate? saluyot! (aka jew’s mellow – i only knew this now as i searched for a pic of it online) it’s a stringbean-like veggie where you do not eat the skin but you have to suck out all the juice and seeds out from it’s sides! eew the slimy gooey texture mixed with a sour taste is terrible!

People: love and hate what i hate the most are people who get so pissed off in the most minuscule of reasons! and add that they express it to everyone as if there is no tomorrow because his temper will crack the planet in half! haha.. and of course i looovvvee everything that is opposite of that.

oh, and yeah, dont ask me how come i know so much about this.

Event/Situation/Incident: love and hate - i hate the waiting that kills… tho love it if all the waiting is worth it. *wink *.*

TV shows/movies: only hate I hate stupid reality shows and dramatic soap-operas... erm, let me re-phrase that. i hate reality shows and soap operas. they are all stupid. and i dont wanna choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth*.. no wonder some people are so full of shit, they watch too much crap on TV. haha.. pardon my… eh, do i need to ask for apologies for saying this?

only love - Discovery channel and National Geographic. (yeah how geekish can one get?)

Music: love and hate again, contrary to what’s popular, i love music with incomprehensible lyrics and drowning noise or ambient tones like whispering vocals eaten by noisy guitar drones. although i hate it when i don’t find a CD of it from tower records.

and to answer the question.. “can anyone really enjoy music with the vocalist mumbling something like a voodoo curse?” --> yep..

Household chores: love and hate geesh.. does everybody hate doing the laundry, too? although, i’d trade my mountain of laundry to your pile of dishes anytime!

Thing/s around the world: love and hate i love the city where i live in, but hate it as it has the most dangerous road in south east asia (!) and dubbed as “the death zone of manila” – which i pass everyday going to and from work. (!)

Thing/s about myself: love and hate i love to think but i hate having ideas… and not having time to write, then all of a sudden have time to write and the ideas i formerly had disappears into the warp zone of my subconscious. (like now. i know i had better answers before.. eh months ago, when i first read this meme at Deity’s blog.)

So thanks for the wonderful ride back to memory lane deity.. hehe.. now let me go back to my busy sked before my boss comes back and catches me “unblocking” my internet connection. Hahah!!

Thanks for reading! And as for the tags, whoever reads this may answer the same “love-hate” questions and don’t forget to leave a comment for your link.

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*note: if this line sounds familiar... yep, got it from the movie trainspotting